From the March 2008 magazine.


Sparking self-honesty

A long time ago, when I'd been in AA for two years, I'd had no spiritual awakening--there was no lightning bolt or burning bush in sight. My wife was chronically ill and had been hospitalized, off and on, for many years with a neuro-psychiatric disorder. There was no hope of recovery.

Although I was sober, I left the hospital in my usual state of mind, that is, wallowing in the muck of my own self-pity, crying inwardly (sometimes outwardly), and wondering why, if there was a benevolent God, he was doing this to me and my wife. I couldn't remember doing so much wrong in my life to deserve such punishment. Damn!

-- Donald A.

Wheeling, Illinois

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