FINDING MY WAY

I DENOUNCED the Christianity of my upbringing sometime around age 15. As my interest in history, world cultures and social activism grew, so did my skepticism regarding Christianity. I didn't seek out a different spiritual path, I just put any thoughts of spirituality out of my mind, except when I read about people of a spiritual nature. By the time I was 16, my budding alcoholism took off full force. My only real interest was the obsession to drink as often as possible and the typical 16-year-old boy stuff like girls and music. Sometimes in a drunken stupor I would talk about theology or philosophy, which isn't a good thing to do when trying to attract some-one of the opposite sex. I called myself an atheist, but in reality I was an agnostic or a theosophist, like Voltaire.