Relax and let go

I'VE always needed to believe that God exists, so when I arrived at AA I easily accepted that it was a spiritual program. I believed in God. My problem was in actually using God for anything. I was told to "turn my will and my life over to the care of God," but my ideas about the Higher Power didn't fit that picture. God was an energy, a force, a part of all of us and the universe, and I just couldn't visualize making "him" a working part of my life. kneeling by the bed seemed an empty gesture. Visualizing handing something to a bearded white guy in the sky didn't sound plausible.