Step Seven: Food For The Journey
Humility lends an AA new strength
I used to draw a blank when I heard the word "humility." Or perhaps not a blank so much as confusion. For me, to be humble was to have, as one dictionary put it, "a feeling of inferiority and insignificance," to feel inadequate and unworthy. The dictionary linked being humble with being humiliated, which in turn pointed to being dishonored, disgraced, and shamed. Its synonyms included "meekness," "submissiveness," and "lowliness."
I didn't want humility! Shame and feelings of inferiority haunted me not only in active alcoholism but even before, in a childhood marked by various forms...
-- Jamie C.
West Henrietta, New York