From the July 2010 magazine.


FEAR was my constant companion when I was still drinking. I had panic attacks. I couldn't deal with stress. I was afraid to live--and I couldn't master suicide. The fear was so great at one point that I took off work for a month. I couldn't function, and I was still drinking to try to control the fear.

When I got sober I was still very afraid. However, as I worked the Steps, I found the fear dissipating. It wasn't totally gone, but I could function. My sponsor suggested I do a fear inventory. I would concentrate on that part of my illness that was still bothering me. This was great....


Brea, Calif.