From the September 2010 magazine.

Sidelined by remorse

After his brother's suicide, he blames himself and drops out of AA

One thing I have learned in AA is that an event that seems insignificant at the time can have monumental effects later. Nothing, it seems, is quite as it seems.

Thirty-four years ago I was new in the Fellowship, full of fear, and with only a faint hope that AA could work for me. I was lucky enough to come into Group #1 in Kansas City, Which used a club that was open 16 hours a day and was the focal point of the social lives of many of the young members, who were desperate to "change playgrounds and playmates." I spent much of my free time there.

-- J.M.

Kansas City, Mo.

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