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The Open Hand of Friendship

Shaking and scared, a newcomer is taken under the wing of an AA at a meeting

I knew the four horsemen well. Terror, bewilderment, frustration and despair were my daily companions. By the end of my drinking, I would gag as I tossed back my first shot of the day, then I would fill the mug with coffee and try to pretend that everyone started the day with a drink.

I had been to doctors, a psychiatrist, the different health care centers in my area. I had looked into a private treatment center, but the exorbitant cost put private treatment out of my reach.

I could find no relief. Continuing to have no choice, I drank. Daily I would swear off and some days I... Login to read more
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