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Surrender, Not Submission

After a relapse, she changed the way she practiced the program

After a weekend long relapse, I realized a couple of things. I needed a new sponsor, one who worked the Steps. I needed to go to some different meetings, women's meetings in particular. I needed a home group. I needed to be more careful around people, not wear my heart on my sleeve.

I had to figure these things out for myself; no one told me.

I came to understand that I had mistaken "submission" for "surrender." I thought I had surrendered, but all I had done was to submit to what I thought of as a bunch of rules. I tried my best, I truly did, but yet I drank... Login to read more
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