From the July 1976 magazine.

It Was Only a Four-day Slip

But it ended in tragedy and a return to prison

WHEN I FIRST came into the AA program, one of the sayings I frequently heard was "one day at a time." Until recently, I didn't really understand what that meant. I was a person who couldn't live one day at a time. I was always trying to live in the future and the past. I was always trying to avoid my responsibilities. Now that I have the time and the patience, I am able to look back and see what I was doing to myself and to others.

I was running away, from the people who cared about me and from the responsibilities that were put upon me. But most of all, I was running away from myself. I didn't want to deal with people or their problems. But most of all, I didn't want to deal with myself. I was scared to see what I really was, rather than what I was pretending to be. I was scared to let the real me float to the surface. So I kept drowning it with booze.

-- G. W.

Bridgewater, Massachusetts

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