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Published October 2015.

Suiting Up

The second time he came to AA, he did things differently. And he got different results

I came to AA once before I got sober. I stayed around for about six months but then I went out for two more years of drinking. I didn't have a sponsor and I hadn't really accepted in the deepest part of myself that I was truly an alcoholic.

Over those two years of drinking, I came to a place in my life in which I could see the truth of my situation. The guilt and shame were so powerful that I absolutely hated who I had become. During that period, I destroyed the remaining friendships I had, as well as my marriage. I wanted to be different than I was. I wanted to not drink more than I wanted to drink. But I didn't know how. I returned to AA.

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