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Published October 2015.

That Old Familiar

She had lived through many bottoms during her drinking career, but this time was different

I was nearly 57 when I finally began to consider life without the insanity of alcohol. After my husband passed away, I came face-to-face with my addiction to alcohol. I was terrified and knew that I had to make change in my life, or I would not live much longer, especially living alone.

My life was a series of attempts at being "normal." I never did achieve that lofty goal. Now I'm not even sure I would want to be that anyway. My goal today is to live this day, and do the best I can for this day only.

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