From the July 2011 magazine.

God's Confetti

A sudden flutter of butterflies provides this AA with a glimpse of the presence of his higher power

"I can't help but wonder if perhaps God has sent me a message, or at least some visitors."

It was late August, and I was sober just under a year, yet I was a bit down. My pink cloud had long worn off. I was going to meetings and had cut the ties with the people, places and things from my drinking days. I was working and doing my best to follow the suggestions given to me. I had a couple of months to go before my anniversary, and I could only wonder what effect it might have on me. I had heard about people's anniversaries affecting them and I was guarding against it a bit, but somehow, I was pretty certain it wasn't my anniversary which was bothering me.

I had tried the suggestion of doing some things I used to enjoy, but I found I was not ready for enjoyment yet. I was down and thinking, "What is this all about anyway? Why am I even doing this?"

-- John M.

Monroe, Connecticut

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