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From the May 2012 magazine.

May 2012: Uprooted

Struggling through hard economic times, she finds that AA is recession-proof

Getting sober does not necessarily mean that we ride off into the sunset and life just turns into a bowl of cherries. When I was two-and-a-half years sober and thought I was out of the woods, I was laid off from a high-paying job in the banking industry as the real estate market crashed. In these uncertain times, I count myself blessed to be employed again. My ego might tend to argue that I am underemployed at my current job, and that in light of my qualifications and experience, I should have a higher-paying, more prestigious position. I have learned in the program not to listen to the voice of my ego when it starts whispering things like that and to let go of any preconceived notions I may have of what my life should be like. I have learned that no matter which circumstances I am placed into in life, regardless of how unendurable they may seem at the moment, my Higher Power has placed me into those circumstances for reasons that I may or may not understand as I am going through them. I have also learned what is really important in life.

I am currently unable to change my work situation. As undesirable as it may be at certain times, I have the support and encouragement that I need from friends in AA to get through the difficult times. I have a sponsor to lean on, who calls to check in with me when I tell her I think I have a rough day ahead. I have tools that I use to deal with my work stress. I journal three hand-written binder pages per day, and I meditate. I have learned yogic breathing that I use when I feel I am starting to get aggravated at work. I have friends in AA who listen to me and help me to understand why I have been placed into the situations in life that I am placed into and I, in turn, listen to them. As I stay connected to trusting in my Higher Power and truly believing that I am serving my purpose in life as I am doing my job, mundane as it may seem, I feel I am able to make a difference in the lives of those I come in contact with.

-- Janice H.

Clayton, California

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