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The Gifts and Tools

Sobriety didn't take away his problems, but it gave him tools to solve them

For years, no matter how hard I tried, I could not fight the obsession to drink. On the rare occasion that I was able to keep myself away from a drink, I remember it being one of the most difficult tasks I had ever done. In one instance, I remember staying home on a Friday night with the intention of getting up early in the morning to spend the entire next day on the beach. Needless to say, my plan backfired when I realized how difficult it was to sleep while fighting the obsession to drink.

My decision to start attending AA meetings was entirely based on fear. I had amassed so many problems over a few short years and chose to ignore them rather than address them. I eventually found myself broke, in debt, faced with criminal charges, and a stranger to my own family. This being my jumping off point, I enrolled in an intensive outpatient program as I figured it was a good half-measure solution to my problem. And since it required me to attend AA meetings, I did just that in order to make sure I "graduated" from the outpatient program in case it should one day sway a judge in my criminal case.

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