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Troubled Sleep

After witnessing a murder, he was advised to lay off the booze

Today is my AA birthday and I'm recuperating at home from surgery. This has given me a lot of time to reflect on how I got here and what it took to stay here. I didn't want to get sober. I didn't even want to stop drinking but a counselor suggested it when I went to him after I witnessed a murder. That murder could have taken place anywhere in the city since none of the parties involved were from this neighborhood. While the police were in my house interviewing me and convincing me that I should testify since I was the sole witness, all I could think about was how much I wanted a drink. They sat outside my house for days on end watching and waiting for trouble. I sat inside and drank.

After a few weeks of not being able to sleep and more and more drinking, I took a suggestion to see a counselor for post-traumatic stress. The counselor and I discussed my problem sleeping and anxiety over what had happened and just generally chatted. Then he did something totally unexpected and unwarranted from my point of view. He suggested that I needed to stop drinking, at least for a while. He explained the physical ramifications of drinking heavily. To punctuate the conversation, he had me sign an agreement to not drink for a week.

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