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From the January 2013 magazine.

January 2013: Bright Lights of Fun

How a young AA learned to re-define “fun,” and find a colorful new world

I have watched a few precious young people coming into our program lately. They stay sober a few weeks or months, then drink because they don’t understand how they can have fun without drinking. It’s just a bizarre concept to them. They get into social situations, whether by choice or necessity, and revert back almost instantly to the delusion that bright lights of fun are just beyond the next drink, when indeed the bright lights are spinning from the top of a police car.

When I was young in sobriety, having fun without drinking was inconceivable to me too. So much blind faith was required; it was just more than I could muster. But people in AA told me I could borrow their faith. They also told me that they had already gone to the detoxes, jails and hospitals for me many times and that I didn’t have to go. That was a relief. I had to trust that these really “old” people in their 30s and 40s had something I wanted, even though I didn’t want it yet, nor even know what it was. I can’t explain why I had the precious gift of desperation as I didn’t know I had that either.

-- Snow P.

Ft. Lauderdale, Florida

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