New Beginnings

I hear at meetings that many feel surrendering is weak. I know all about surrendering as I did it for many years. I surrendered my life and my soul to alcohol. I would tell myself every day I was not going to drink that day. I would promise to keep my word. By the end of my drinking years, I could not not drink every day. My body needed it just to feel normal. I could say I wouldn't drink but would find myself looking for the next bottle.