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From the May 2011 magazine. First printed in June 1974.

May 2011: More ups than downs

A prank shows her the futility of her rage while working on the Fifth Step

Some teenagers began throwing snowballs at my car. One hit my windshield hard. I burst into a rage.

This past winter, I drove down to our little park, and some teenagers began throwing snowballs at my car. One hit my windshield hard. I burst into a rage. I ground my teeth as I stopped the car. The kids must have seen that I was furious. How gratifying! I got out of the car, and I can’t tell you what my intentions were. Was I going to kill all the little darlings and chop them into small pieces? The absurdity of the thing hit me, and I began to laugh. I made a couple of snowballs and threw them at the kids. They threw a few at me. A good time was now being had by all. I said, “I think my score’s pretty good for an adult.” And I got back into the car and drove off, laughing.

It’s wonderful when we can see a ridiculous element in something we’re doing or thinking that’s wrong. In the snowball episode, I admitted that I was being an ass. I didn’t need God or an AA friend for that one, though I told on myself later.

-- F. M.

New Canaan, Connecticut

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