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From the February 2011 magazine.

February 2011: Of spandex and spirituality

He finally accepted his alcoholism, his sexuality and his life

"I rode by the bar in which I saw the guy I immediately hated because he was in spandex."

In May 1996, when I first came to Alcoholics Anonymous, I heard people say that they were alcoholics waiting to happen. That was me, too. I had never felt comfortable in my own skin. I thought it was because I was the baby of my family and never got the respect I thought I deserved, or perhaps it was because I was attracted to the “wrong” sex, or because of all the issues I had with my parents. But those are things that I could’ve taken care of with counseling. What I couldn’t get outside help with was that fact that I was born and will die an alcoholic.

Alcohol got me through my late teens and allowed me to fit in at college. And when I was in my late 20s, alcohol allowed me to talk to that
totally hot guy at that party who I knew was my knight in shining
armor. I would no longer have to worry that I knew nothing about getting a promotion at work or making enough to buy the things I wanted. He told me he would take care of me and he did, sort of.

-- Anonymous

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