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From the April 2011 magazine.

April 2011: “Ed the dead” sings songs of gratitude

This musical jam-master hasn’t bitten anyone’s butt in 25 years!

"Today, I still love a good jam. I just do it without alcohol."

I used to share the common misconception many newcomers have, that there cannot possibly be life after alcohol. Before AA, I could not imagine abandoning this warped view. After AA, I see this was just a weak excuse for poor behavior. Since a teenager, I recklessly pursued my so-called constitutional right to happiness to the exclusion of every other emotion. I confused stimulus with happiness.

The void that instantly appeared when I abandoned alcohol is slowly being filled by this prescription: trust God, clean house and help others. Once my life was fueled by alcohol, now it runs on a conscious contact with God and compassion for fellow alcoholics. Before AA, most of my friends and acquaintances were practicing alcoholics. Since AA, most of my friends and acquaintances are reformed alcoholics. Years of practice made us perfect drunks who now attempt to practice a new set of principles in all our affairs. We are content with progress rather than perfection. Rather than enduring nightly misery on a barstool, we share our daily pain before it turns to gloom.

-- Ed L.

Wrightwood, California

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