Step 2 Came to Scoff

When I was eight years old, my mother was murdered. I began what was to be a long-term love/hate/fear relationship with God. I was sure that God had cursed me, so that everyone I loved would either leave me or die, and by the time I came to AA, I didn't want to believe in a Higher Power. I didn't like even hearing the word "God," and there it was written all over the Steps. But I was pretty desperate, so I thought I would try to work around the "spiritual part of the program."