From the February 2010 magazine.

Over the edge

A young AA finds the program after almost killing a friend in a blackout

I DID really well in school and loved sports as a kid. I loved making new friends and having a great time just running around, as a kid should.

Somewhere between 10 and 12 years old, I began to become introverted. I started to pick up ways of thinking and responding to emotions and the world that would eventually become deadly to my spirit, my growth and my fellow man.

I stopped expressing any level of hurt or sadness, as I saw it as weak. Self-centered fear began to run my life. I was deeply afraid of letting anyone know how I really felt (inadequate and insecure) and would...


White Plains, N.Y.