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From the November 2013 magazine.

November 2013: Sharon, Donna, Patrick and Grace

She struggled and struggled and didn’t give up. Neither did her home group

At my first AA meeting I heard, “Go to 90 meetings in 90 days,” “Don’t drink,” “Get a sponsor,” “Get a home group and a service commitment.” I didn’t want to follow any of these suggestions. After five days, a woman approached me and asked if I had a sponsor. When I said I didn’t, she told me, “You do now.”

I did not drink, and since I was unemployed, I went to about 180 meetings in my first 90 days. I joined a home group and took the coffee commitment. Using the phone was one of the tougher suggestions. I managed to stay sober for a whole year, but at the beginning of each meeting when they asked, “Does anyone feel like drinking?” I could not be honest. I felt very uncomfortable in my skin, and my mind was still convincing me that I could drink safely. I kept praying for the willingness to get honest. I found a new sponsor, yet I could not, or would not, get honest. I drank again—for eight months.

-- S.A.

Warwick, New York

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