Moments of Spiritual Awareness

My mother had a drinking problem and died of what the doctor charitably diagnosed as "hepatitis." A few years later I realized that I had inherited the same problem or at least the same personality traits, which lead me to alcoholism. One day while standing in front of her grave, after trying desperately and unsuccessfully for some weeks to stop drinking, I blurted out, "Mom, surely you have the answer now. Please help me." Suddenly everything grew dim and I perceived in a manner I can't describe the one word: "RECEIVE." That was all. The experience was over and I was aware of the countryside once again.