Out of Insanity - up to Love

IT dawned slowly, this awareness of how really vast had been the wilderness I'd been in for the first forty-five years of my life. As time goes on in AA and I "keep comin' back," the mud is settling, the awareness has sharpened, my knowledge has deepened, my peripheral vision has widened. Between my second and third year on the program full reality began to set in and it nearly flipped me. I still don't know whether psychiatry helped, but I went, until I realized that for me AA did the same thing psychiatry did (over the long pull) with something added: AAs would not just sit and look at me whilst I groped around for answers, they would pull the rug out from under me, hit me with simple truths I tended to complicate, point out pitfalls and stinking thinking.