The Old Fear Had to Go

FOR EIGHT years I was a Loner on the program, using the Twelve Steps as the tools with which to build my life. In the beginning of my search for a conscious contact with God, I found it was impossible to approach Him still holding the concept I had had of Him as a child. After twenty-one years of drinking, after finding the program and taking the Third Step, here I was still at the stage of thinking of Him as a God of vengeance. But He was the same One who had somehow, and for some purpose, wanted me sober. The inconsistency had to be resolved.