Carrying the Message

This morning I read the November article "Your Misery Back on the Empty Bottle," by R. L. Y. He hit me hard. I recognized the feelings I had when drinking: the fear of not knowing, the terrible remorse. I could feel once again that sick feeling inside, while my guts were turning over, and that waking up and praying that it didn't happen, praying that it was only a dream, and if not--why me?