Carrying the Message

Looking at yourself can be a never-ending battle. At least, for me it is, because I always want to run away. When I quit drinking, I couldn't face myself honestly, and so I turned from alcohol to pills--another way to keep myself from looking at the real me. I felt that if people found out what I'd done in the past and all the mistakes I'd made, they wouldn't like me. So I just kept putting off telling the truth and lived in fear that someone would find it out.