Carrying the Message

After six years of sobriety, I recently went through my first really long (four weeks) depression. Doctors had given me some bad news about my eyes, and I immediately exaggerated their diagnosis. I went around telling myself I had to accept blindness and "Thank God I would not be a drunken blind man." I thought I was applying the Eleventh Step (to the best of my ability); but I could see it was not working, and I proceeded into a very bad depression. I used all the gimmicks I was taught in AA--except "Let go and let God" and "One day at a time"--but nothing was working.