Peace of Mind in Prison

I WAS INTRODUCED to AA at the age of twenty-one, but felt I was too young to be an alcoholic. This went on for about six years around the program, before I finally beat myself enough and spent about six good months in AA. Then something happened that I didn't like. I let self-pity creep in, and I picked up a drink. I planned a one-night drunk, forgetting the meaning of the First Step: that we can't plan anything as far as alcohol is concerned after the first drink.