Carrying the Message

I've had the fears each of us suffer from time to time--like waking from a drunk dream and having it seem so real that I ask my wife if I did get drunk again. (The relief to hear a negative answer!) And I remember wanting my first anniversary quickly, instead of one day at a time. Hearing the stories of thousands or at least hundreds of slips at all the different stages of sobriety retold at meetings, I've been afraid that maybe I'm not really being honest. Will I be next?