Learning to Trust Life

IT WAS VERY difficult to turn my life and will over to the care of a God I did not trust--a loving God, but a just God--a merciful God, but an omnipotent God capable of great wrath--a God who kept me in suspense wondering if He was going to deliver the goods to make me happy, whether with salvation or a better job--all in all, a very chancy sort of God to be fooling with.