Be Good to Yourself

I ALWAYS WANTED to be a really good person. Today, I have some different ideas to add to my idea of being good. I literally wallowed in guilt and self-hatred during my drinking days. This habit has been hard to break in sobriety. In a strange way, I thought that if I paid enough homage to the gods of guilt, I would some day be forgiven, and that lashing myself with my faults was what God wanted of me, to teach me humility and somehow to let me pay for all my wrongdoings when I was drinking.