Strawberries and Ice Cream

DURING FIFTEEN years of drinking and denying reality, I created a vicious circle for myself. I had to drink because I couldn't stand reality; eventually, I had to sober up each time--and there was reality again. I didn't get my own way as often as I believed I deserved it; so, I reasoned, since the world was so unkind and God was so unfair, I'd drink to feel good in spite of it all.