Sicker Than Others?

I CAME INTO AA seven years ago, after drinking for fifteen years. Thoughts of drinking were my constant companion for nine months. When I passed liquor stores, I drooled. When I walked, I staggered. When I drove, the car would weave and bob. I told my sponsor one day that I couldn't take it any longer, that I was going to drink because my socks didn't match. I went to my home group meeting and told them that AA didn't work, because I was still acting like a drunk without drinking. I was told that I had to work the Steps.