Turn It All Over

I WAS WHAT is called a high-bottom drunk. When I got to the AA program, I had not been beaten down enough to have anything even remotely approaching real humility. I was smug, arrogant, self-satisfied, and certain that every area of my life except my alcoholism was firmly and securely under my control. The trouble was that I did not understand what alcoholism really was, even after experiencing it for all those years. I thought that alcoholism consisted of drinking too much and without control. I didn't understand that it is a disease of the whole person: physical, mental, and spiritual.