Sunday Dinner

I was sober four and one-half years when I noticed that certain issues in my life simply had not budged, I was angry a lot but I couldn't trace the source of the anger. I had headaches and took a lot of aspirin, I had several acquaintances but virtually no friends in whom I felt safe to confide the secrets I was hiding from everyone, including myself. My marriage was falling apart even though I was active in AA and my wife was active in Al-Anon. We were unable to achieve intimacy in our marriage. There was a moat of distrust which separated us from a sense of partnership. I was uncomfortable around people and when I was alone I felt like I was in the presence of a hostile stranger. Even though I was sober, the world still felt like an unsafe place populated by people who could not be trusted.