Blessings Then and Now

AS I sit here in this cell at the Utah State prison, my mind has been revolving from the past to the present, trying to compare the blessings I've received in life--in the "past" and in the "now." Somehow, when I started this, I was sure the past would outweigh the now. But I was fooled. Even though I could list many more events of the past which I thought were blessings, I found they were just that, "events." I did not take those events and use them as blessings. And all those events remain only memories and have long gone out of my life. Yet in the "now" I can see and list blessings which are still with me and as long as I keep active in the principles of the Twelve Steps, those blessings stay with me.