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July 1988

A Sometimes Painful Concoction

Mixing belief and unbelief in a search for a faith that works

It was during my Fifth Step that, for the first time, I admitted to myself and to another human being that I hated God, that I had cursed him and that, deep within me, I did not trust him. So much of the pain in my life seemed to have come from him or from his representatives, those who taught in his name.


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