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May 1988

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Fear, suspicion, distrust

I got sober in a small town of 30,000, and for the first year I had a sobriety filled with fear, suspicion, and distrust. I am gay, and although I was uneasy in AA, fearing rejection, I also wanted to live and so made the choice to do the best I could with what I had. As I passed my first year, however, my fear and its sister, resentment, swelled to unbearable proportions. I joined World Hello (international correspondence group) looking for a "safe" place to dump my rage, and dump I did!


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