Giving

I was feeling sad, frustrated, and sorry for myself, because this year, like so many before, I didn't have the money to buy gifts. I didn't even have any creative energy to make up for it. I was fighting a sense of failure and despair that I would ever "get on with my life." I was also overwhelmed at how to give back to the people who had given so much to me. At times I placated myself with the thought that I would "do something special after Christmas."