A Living Faith

When I first came to Alcoholics Anonymous fifteen years ago, I rather compulsively (like everything else) did the Steps--in about a month. When I came to the Third Step, "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him," I probably checked it off with a mental note that God now had my will and my life, and moved on to Step Four. Some years went by without my ever really averting to the true meaning of this Step. Finally, after hearing enough people speak about it at meetings, doing enough reading about the program and possibly feeling enough tension, it dawned on me that I had never really done the Third Step, and that I still essentially lived my life wanting to always be in control.