PO Box 1980

I am grateful the door of AA swings both ways, for I left many times after getting sober. For years this was my pattern--I was in and out of AA. I wanted to control my drinking and my life. Each time it was a disaster. I lost and lost. Then came the detoxes, the hospitalizations. I remember returning to meetings feeling guilty and shaky. I tried again and again--why wasn't it working for me? I brought the body but I didn't listen. I was told to ask for help, but I wanted to do it alone.