So, Who Needs the Slogans?

Framed prints of the slogans were hanging on the walls at the rehab where I got sober. How I hated seeing those trite and simple phrases. With my complex and intellectual mind, I thought they were ridiculous. Who in the world could live "One Day at a Time"? I certainly could not! I needed to know what was going to happen so I could plan ahead; I needed to be in control of my daily, weekly, monthly, yearly activities. It was impossible for me to think about today. I was usually worried about yesterday and fretting about tomorrow. I couldn't stay in the day because I couldn't stay alone with myself; being alone frightened me into anxiety and restlessness. I used alcohol to soothe the loneliness. The reality was that alcohol heightened my loneliness. The fact was I wasn't comfortable enough in my own skin to live one day at a time.