Will You Fire Me?

When I first became sober, I thought I was one of those rare people in AA that wouldn't need a sponsor. I also came to think that if I asked someone to sponsor me, I'd be told no. I developed a terrible fear of rejection. So I held on by my fingernails for seven months. At this time, I felt like I was going crazy. I wasn't working any sort of a program. I knew that if I was to stay sober, I would have to try this sponsor thing.