Reintroduced to Myself

I am one of AA's younger members and am actually grateful to be an alcoholic. At first I thought of AA as a brainwashing program as I watched my mother get sober and change over a four-year period. I guess back then I was proud to be an active alcoholic, thought I was lucky to have the freedom to drink, and often felt sorry for people in AA who took themselves so seriously. I attended AA with my mother on occasion, but I couldn't believe the things people said and the feelings they had. When I saw people from AA in the mall or the post office, they wanted to reach out to me, but I'd get away from them as fast as I could.