Rainy Season

I was coming up to my thirteenth AA anniversary, and I felt as alone and scared as I had when I was first sober. My life had become very busy and over the previous year or two, AA had taken a back seat in my life. I had a full-time job, a part-time job, went to college, and belonged to the board of my housing co-op. When I went to meetings, I found myself reverting to old behaviors such as arriving at my home meeting at 8:29 and leaving immediately after the Lord's Prayer. I never spoke to anyone. In fact I was terrified of most of the people who were there. Even the new people in sobriety seemed to have their act together better than I did. They were all better looking, better dressed, and had more than I did (all of the important things!).