The In Crowd

In the early days of my drinking, I acquired a new lifestyle and it came with a new social circle. "This is it," I thought. "I've finally found my way to the In Crowd."I belonged. I was cool. This thought came back to me this morning during my meditation, and I realized what being part of the In Crowd brought me. It made me insecure, indecisive, insensible, intolerable, infantile, inebriated incarcerated a few times, always insane, and at the end, very incomplete.