Never-ending Growth

Recently I celebrated ten years of sobriety. I am one of those people who always wants to know how much time someone has in AA. In some ways, I have gauged my program by the programs of others. I've noticed that people who have what I want seem to do a lot of Twelfth Step work, so over the years I've taken on a lot of service positions ranging from making coffee to sponsorship. These service positions have increased as my years of recovery have increased. I never wanted to say no to an AA request because I was afraid that I would be sucked back into the black hole of alcoholism if I wasn't willing to go to any lengths. Over the last year, my home and cell phone were ringing up to ten or more times a day from AA members. Often I would turn my cell off at night and by the next morning there would be five or more voice mails waiting for me. Somewhere in there I was trying to be a wife, daughter, and friend, as well as taking care of my home and two dogs.