No escape

The first time I drank I liked it very much, so much that I'd do it again and again for the next 25 years. I started out drinking on the weekends, then sometimes during the week. I had two children and I stopped for a few years. But I resumed my drinking and fell in love with it all over again. I felt like I was finally finding my happiness in life. It made my problems seem less like problems. It made me feel stronger, more courageous. It even made me feel smarter than everyone else. Vodka was always there for me when I needed a pick-up or an escape. I always had time for drinking. It kept me sane. Other people just didn't understand that it was a release. The world they lived in must have been boring, not like the fun world I was living in, the real world.